Stuffs from Dad and Son Talk

Earlier tonight, dad suddenly kinda explain why he ask me to come back.
Mainly, mom and dad don't want to see me living without any family member anymore as I did in the last five years.
And they believe this home will bring me back my happiness.

I immediately thanked my dad wholeheartedly,
because I realized how much they love me,
And I really don't deserve it.

Along with all the other thoughts and questions that were desired to be answered for the last 3 years,
even though I realized this is something I shouldn't and couldn't love,
I'm happy for this permanent return.

Mentally Burned

I am mentally burned.
Rest isn't the way to get me out.
I need to be very tough again.