Sense of Belonging

I think if you could recognize my emotional feeling not always but occasionally, then my sense of belonging come. Otherwise, without the sense of belonging,  I couldn't find a reason to do this and that based on your will.

If you have recognized this already before even reading the above passage, yes, I can't reject this. You must be my best friend.

Time

This is the time of the year..
...when I feel time run too fast.
...when I wish one day have 48 hours or even longer instead of 24.

thought that mean I wish i could have more things during my life time now.
this also mean how much I enjoy what my heavenly father is doing to me.
Thanks for everything, Lord.

Should my loyalty be kept regardless, so it could be my purest response to your love for us.

Leaves Color

Wait, why do leaves' color is changing again?

精神病‧終結者

其實我不是精神病終結者。
我只是一種精神病。

一時好中國人，一時好美國人的精神病。

Miss

Miss my time and life in Champaign again. Can You bring me back again?

Truth

I don't want to any truth no more.
I just want to work harder and harder.
Let those hard works itself speak out the truth.

Manu Ginobili Can Know

"If Manu Ginobili can come off the bench in San Antonio and not saying a word, so can you?" I think I know where should this statement going to in my life.

GINOBILI

呢個月，咁鬼多野做，十個有九個搵我都係叫我做呢樣做個樣，本來諗住hea佢地就算。不過我再想起Jesus的犧牲，Jane導師當年的恩，當年學校給我的第二次機會，父母多年的support。我唔可以因為把"咁鬼多野做"當作為一個原因而去恩將仇報，相反地，我要做得更好, because there are a lot of stuffs for me to prove, because I have prove nothing in the past. 反正，死，我己不怕，還有甚麼好怕？Ok, and i will take it, and I will take this by myself since I am used to do it on my own anyway.

"Looking back on everything, on how I got to where I am. I don't know if it was because I was running towards something...or running away from it. But that didn't matter. What I did know is, when you run into something... something bigger, something meaner, something with the power to knock you down... you have to trust in yourself, trust that you can get back up and not give in... ever. Cause power isn't just about going forward, it's about not letting anything hold you back. You find it in yourself. You can go anywhere you want." - Patrick Willis, Linebacker for the San Francisco 49ers

Manu Ginobili can know.

Anyway, dear God, thanks for your joke again and I am very much appreciate it. I know you are always this humorous to me. hahahakaaha.

Worse

Learnt the following from one of my bosses, and it helped me to feel better about this world, and it is, "That is not the worst, because it could only keep getting worse." Ironically, this mentality made me feel much better about right now and future.

Walk out

Everytime I walk out like this,
It means i have nothing left for this place.

Everytime I walk out like this,
I am prepared to be forgotten like a dust in the desert.

I start failing to trust this place.

Lets do this again!!!

Ignore everything else, just be focus.
Kobe Bryant 24/7 Work Ethic Revival.

These Days

These days,
the more nice I am, the more challenges I'll face,
but that won't make me go back, and make me go wicked.

這樣的愛

我的主恩，深比海更深
這份愛，解我心中罪困

勇氣

還要些勇氣　去敢於面對這挑戰...

我會看見　是基督的冠冕~

Losing

Maybe all these experiences on losing are mean to be good, 

because I need to learn how to enjoy the art of acceptance 

while I am at position that I can't do anything about it. 

Go to some place where I could do something about it. 

The Trip Back to Illinois

Yeh, that's right. I ended up cried very badly in CCCC during praising time. It was really coming from nowhere. I'm blessed how Lord led me to there, cultivate my spiritual life there and develop so many unique friendship there. I cried immediately when I reminded how we start things all over again when half congregation are just gone after a series of mistake and misunderstanding. That's the lowest point there, but no one choose to give up. We are still being passionate and hopeful because we know good things will happen if that's the right thing to do. Today, our decedents are still continuing our passion and faith to Him. Lord, thanks for trusting and being faithful on us everyday.

My trip workout pretty well as expected. I also learnt a lot of surprises. I guess that's why I should come back there every year besides witnessing the growth of my niece.

Here is a list of surprises:
1. XCW's maybe boyfriend
2. Daniel Chan and Chen Yu's surprise visit
3. Talking to Pastor Mike
4. Edmund Chu's update
5. Li Yu's poor story on her and Sunny

ah, I am so exciting to work again tomorrow.

At the First Sight

It is rare to have arch rivalry at the first sight, and I cherish that.
If you handle it well, it would only make u a better man.

Life with Whatspp

Nowadays, I don't really talk to ppl in person after Sunday service if I don't usually talk to them on whatsapp/FB/gchat unless they don't use any of these. 

Those peoples used to ignore me already. I don't find a reason to talk to you in person during such precious time to connect with others who don't use any advance communication technology. 

Yeh, such way of life saved me a lot of my time on talking to people. 

Thanks you, whatsapp and all that. 

Duh

So ppl complain me for being to careful.
If i do what he said, right, I will protect him right now but I will suffocate more people in the future.
I see these kind of stuffs happen too much and I wont repeat the same mistake again through me.

It worth it, even if this complain will hunt me back forever.

Set Up the Tone

Why do I convey my emotion so obvious at the beginning of any event?
Because I want to waste no time, I want to convey why we are here.
Emotion and feel shouldn't develop during the event,
because doing that is just wasting more time opportunities.

This is also what a worship leader should realize before they start the session.
Don't waste any time to make everyone to guess what are you going to do.
Let them know what you are going to do.

A Moving Heart

Everytime my heart move like tat,
it's not a good sign.
It means it's too good to be true.
It just a dream which will never come true.

This dream seems touchable, but everytime I tried to move one step forward, it is actually untouchable.

Keep such a distance is good enough, make it seems touchable is good enough.
I don't need to know the truth anyway.

It doesn't matter after 1,000 years anyway.

The only Interest now

My only interest is to work hard everyday,
because Mighty is the Power of the Cross.

The Proof

Let my actions be my proof.
Let my proof shows the truth.

Belong

I dont belong to that church that place that home.
My life is belonging to my Lord,
because he made me a man.

My favorite

I think Imma cry if i could get back to CCCC again,
because it take too much efforts to get back,
and it's too fun to live there.

Face it

After prevented from it for 2 years, I have to face it again.

Apply professional membership.

My belief is stronger than your doubt.

義

少理他不仁，
多自行仗義。

Keep our fire going
Keep dishing out real justice.

Thanks for your teaching again!
Trust in you no matter what!

Grandma

Your blindness proves how unfair this world is,
but you always get back up and then just keep doing what you have to do,
and keep telling me to do same thing everyday until I have done what you said.

This leave me no reason to quit my life regardless what happen.

Your body has left,
but your spirit stays.

Celebration

Keep the heads up. 

Keep the hearts beat

Strike all the fears down.

Strike all the complains down. 

And let the celebration continues without fears and complains.

If one keep the complains and tears run like river during the celebration, 

the ceremony of the last meeting should be a celebration, 

because we successfully become what we ought to be. 

Hide & Sit

Something is hiding someone as someone is hiding something.
I am sitting here and see how you hiding it,
because it mean to be know after a period of time.
Truth could never be fold if it is important to know.

Anyhow, what can I do even I know it.
I figure all these years, my cash is the only influence I have on people.

Not my jokes, not my passion, not my action and all that.
Somehow my passion has become an excuse for me archive my selfish wish in other eyes.

Anyway, so if I don't have the money to make the impact.
Even I know everything, it doesn't matter.

You keep wasting your time and effort to keep your secrets away from me,
and it won't make any difference on me.

Chicago

If I have a chance, I really don't want to go back to Chicago.
I couldn't find a reason to come back.

None of the reason sounds reasonable.
I couldn't believe it when I try to say it.

You guyz just come and visit me and I treat u a meal and I will believe whatever you explained why you are coming back to visit me.

CHICAGO

The Impact of Petro

At a time, I was really amazed about God's work in HK.
He didn't just allow me to work in the career field which I really obsessed with.

He once even showed me my beloved American church lifesyles could be happened in HK fellowship,
but meanwhile, the holy spirit suggested that I should treat it as a glimpse and not to substain such style prominently. It could become a push to drive my old HK church-mates out, and I chose to stop it.

I chose to stop it not because that's a command from the holy spirit. I actually heard it as a prophecy. A prophecy which could become true if I choose to walk on this road, and it did become true initially as I didn't stop at the right time. Moreover, I chose to stop it, because witnessing my old church-mates quits is the last thing I want to see in my life. It's okay for me to not living in American style.  I rank the existence a live higher than any kind of ideal lifestyle and all that.

Hence, the sky is the limit of the impact of Petro, but it just a tool to get people better, not a tool to get the impact even bigger.

Oh My

Do you know your right hand stabbing your left hand today means your right hand will be damaged indirectly too?

You sure your right hand won't do this to yourself right?

Entry & Exit

Joyful entry starts with smiles and warm welcome.
Joyful exit starts with hatred, blood and wounds.

Although hatred, blood, wounds seem so scary, I don't afraid of them,
because it is a sign of exit.

Friends - Wills and Still Part II

Turns out the feuds have to do with something else,
and I am convinced it is well arranged by God Himself.

And somehow I realized these arrangements are mean to convince me to be a good person no matter what.

I don't mind people make decisions for my works, but I am learning not to let people to change me.
I am going to be what God want me to be.

Life Continues

Life is an interesting journey. You never know where it'll take you. Peaks and valleys, twists and turn. You could get the surprise of your life. Sometimes on the way to where your goin you might think this is the worst time of my life but you know what at the end of the road through all the adversity if you could get to where you wanted to be you remember whatever don't kill you make you stronger and all the adversity was worth it. On the way to the top you'll do anything but how do you get your life back when you get there? Yeah that's my dilemma.

Too Challenging, too close

Making a visit during a weeknight right after a holiday season is too difficult to arrange.

It's like u are forcing ppl to join your party right before our final exams. 

Don't be disappointed, make a better plan next time to make your visit matters.