Deed

Let's do these things oppositely!!!
I very wish to say the follow on my fb account.
However, that is a place where I can't speaks oppositely anymore.

No Kuckleball

唔好囉，做出來也沒用。不要做。

Dear Jesus

In need of Jesus.

It's Okay.

It's Okay.
No hard feeling.
I know you don't care anyway.
It's foolish to care someone who don't care.
So I shouldn't and won't waste any gas. 
 I bet you agree.

No, I am wrong again.
I don't think you would even agree.
You just don't care.

Apologies. With Shame

Apologies are needed this time.
Flood by works, desires,and greed,
the cultivation finished successfully,
and the plants are still confound.

Contamination are cover by jokes, but those jokes are true.
Without freedom, they are circulating in front of their eyes,
flowing in their bloodstream, every single seconds. 

Everything is conditional.
Nothing is unconditional.
Indeed, there are some appreciation and reverence.
Yet, it's about what their peers done, not who they are.

I am sorry.
Nothing can be atoned.
Shame apologies are the last thing could be offered.
The only hope - Might what we planted today can be developed and flourished someday, before it parched.

James 4:7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 

Which I needed to be too, in order to resist my own addiction and the devil.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Like Rasheed, Like Mean

You should be more aggressive and cruel when you are condemning.
Like Rasheed, without holding anything back.
So you'll know what are really talking about.

And I'll know what you want.

Wake Up

I finally woke up.
I realize she is just using me as a tool.
And the worse part is - I didn't even get any paid. 

Getting Older

The older we are, the more forgiveness we have to give out.

太 6:14    你們饒恕人的過犯，你們的天父也必饒恕你們的過犯；
太 6:15    你們不饒恕人的過犯，你們的天父也必不饒恕你們的過犯。

And more forgiveness opportunities are coming. 

還是不應承好

曾經有位香港老朋友跟我說：「我不會重色輕友的。」
結果他最後也難逃厄運。他, 最後也重色輕友。

在下並不是因為一個空頭承諾而傷心，
而是，我又要目擊一段友情如何為愛情犧牲了。

究竟友情何價?

Implication

My sister said impatiently, " If you can't find a job in Chicago, go back to Hong Kong!"
Her inkling implicated she don't want to see me in Chicago.
I wasn't surprise at all when I hear this,
Because I knew her will on my future when I was a college freshman already. 


That's right, thou shouldn't take good and greatness for granted anyway.

Revenge continues

I bet she still believe the rumors, and keep disparage me to my parent like I'm nobody.
In response to this, I told my parents last night.
I am going to excel and take her glasses off.
Then, I'll tell her at her face.
"Who say ppl majored in urban planning can't find a job?"

Typical 的香港人

Typical 的香港人,
講野多過做野.

What else can I do here?

You could disrespect, disparage and scorn me regardless how much effort I had putted already.
But don't ignore mom's phone call.
She is our mom.
Now, come on.

Remorse and Compunction

I am still remorse for something I didn't do,
because they all believe I did it.
For real, I didn't and never betray her.
If you all still believe I did it,
fine, I'll just never appear in your life again.

It's stuffy to co-exist with the people who don't trust me in the same space.
Now, our relationship seems good again,
but that doesn't mean I am cool to have a meal with them together.

Does it answer why I love to stay in Champaign, Hong Kong and Chicago forever? 

I think of God when I hear this song

Result of being abused.

I am tire of asking "Are you okay or do you any help?"
I rather ask, "Are you die yet?"
Don't ask me y i treat you like that now.
Ask yourself what had you done to me beside asking me for help.

I know the concept of saving treasure on the heaven.
But I say this just like when someone stab me;
Crying from my own pain is a normal immediate reaction. 

Weird Dream

Last night, I dream of myself hanging out with April Shower and its life partner.
Such dream in unorthodox fashion.....

傷痕文學

傷痕文學...
於其有氣有力為對你不莫關心的人去傷心.
倒不如全力以赴去為重視你的人而去奮鬥。

You'll spend the same amount of energy anyway.
I don't mind to keep reading it if that contain a solution.

Brillant Lyrics!~

Lil Wayne's A Milli

Ha ha, and I'd rather be pushing flowers
Than to be in the penn sharing showers
Ha, Tony told us this world was ours
and the Bible told us every girl was sour
don't play in the garden and don't smell her flower
call me Mr. Carter or Mr. Lawn Mower.

I pick this version because I like this version more.


Mentioned Lyrics begin at 2:45

One thing that my Lord changed me.

One thing that my Lord changed me is my complain tendency.

For those who know me well before times,
I love to complain and criticize.
And I love complain to a point, and even beyond to a point
that they would not like to hear.

However, our Lord teaching illuminate my views on complains.
^{Matt 6:14} For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
  ^{Matt 6:15} But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Indeed, continue leashing my complain out would only continue my bad days. 
Choosing to forgive will be forgiven. 

Though, I still like to complain here. 
(Sorry, I aren't perfect. Part of my sinful nature remains)
I practicing not to complain in the crowd. 
So innocent people won't be suffered from my bad days and complain physically. 

Moreover, I know complain don't good any good. 
If we find some blemish and flaw. 
Rather than complain in the crowd,
implement your solution immediately. 
Complain isn't a solution. 
Complain would often lead to more problems. 
Solution is a practical way that's resolving the problem directly. 


Stuck? 
Ask for and find wisdom for solution.


Amen.

Traffic Light

It's red light.
Please stop proceeding.

Go 'till it turns green.
As green as A.C. Green.
As green as Celtics.

今天回味當席話

「酒逢知己千杯少，話不投機半句多。」

當中的情義,我現在才懂.
因為當天我們實太被動。
沒關係，只要是真就行了.

Thanks

I thank God for helping me to get my focus and determination back.
Those attendee, gifts, and blessings (whether those are true, but they willing to typing it at the end of the day)
Pump me up again.

I no need to think what I have and lost.
Just think and thank what I could do.
and I thank what I could see now.

Thanks.

蛋散

 蛋散，蛋饊的俗称，是以麵粉、筋粉、雞蛋和豬油搓成落油鑊炸，炸到淺黃色時便撈起，蘸麥芽糖便可吃。

「蛋散」亦是一個粵語詞彙，用來形容不學無術，無用的人。

以前，我不在乎每人看我成是蛋散。
只要我愛的人不看我成蛋散就行了。

現在, 我仍然不在乎每人看我成是蛋散。
只要有人不看我成蛋散就行了。

現在,我不介意我愛的人當我是蛋散。
反正我亦不鐘意做蛋散。
我亦逃不過良心責備，
所以我亦做不起蛋散。

只要有人不看我成蛋散就行了。

Care

I expect they'll care, but they didn't
I didn't expect they'll care, but they did.
so if I want them to care, I have to not expecting anything?

but I am a planner.
One of my job natures is anticipation.

東南西北

你是甚麼東西
我我就是甚麼南北!~

Kill me, you certainly can.

You could kill me, but you can't kill my soul as I left so much in the reality. Every snap shot of my soul will be remained on the streets. You could blow my brain and take every brain juice from, but you can't get any wisdom from my brain. Walk your own road and get your own wisdom, suckers.

There are just some reunions I never like to attend. Some bodies are here but the souls are gone. I like your soul, not your body. And there is a lot of ways to revisit your timeless souls beside reunion. Let's say, communion.

I like AI.

"Practice" Press Conference


Reporter: Could you be clear about your practicing habits since we can't see you practice?

AI: Anybody tell you that I missed practice... If, If, if a Coach say I missed practice, and y'all hear it, then that's that.

I mean, I might have missed one practice this year but if, if somebody say he doesn't come to practice, it could be one practice. Out of all the practices this year, that's enough... that's enough to get a whole lot started. I told Coach Brown that you don't have to give the people of Philadelphia a reason to think about trading me or anything like that. If you trade somebody, you trade them to make the team better...simple as that. I'm cool with that. I'm all about that. The people in Philadelphia deserve to have a winner. It's simple as that. It goes further than that ...

Reporter: So you and coach Brown got caught up on Saturday about practice?

AI: If I can't practice, I can't practice man. If I'm hurt, I'm hurt. I mean ... simple as that. It aint about that... I mean its... Its not about that... At all. You know what I'm saying I mean...
But its...its easy ... to, to talk about... It's easy to sum it up when you're just talking about practice. We're sitting in here, and I'm supposed to be the franchise player, and we in here talking about practice. I mean, listen, we're talking about practice, not a game, not a game, not a game, we talking about practice. Not a game. Not, not ... Not the game that I go out there and die for and play every game like it's my last. Not the game, but we're talking about practice, man. I mean, how silly is that? ...
And we talking about practice. I know I supposed to be there. I know I'm supposed to lead by example... I know that... And i'm not.. I'm not shoving it aside, you know, like it don't mean anything. I know it's important, I do. I honestly do...
But we're talking about practice man. What are we talking about? Practice? We're talking about practice, man. (laughter from the media crowd) We're talking about practice. We're talking about practice. We aint talking about the game.(more laughter) We're talking about practice, man. When you come to the arena, and you see me play, you see me play don't you? You've seen me give everything I've got, right? But we're talking about practice right now. We taking about pr... (Interrupted)

Reporter: But it's an issue that your coach continues to raise?

AI: Man look, I hear you... it's funny to me too, I mean it's strange... it's strange to me too, but we're talking about practice man, we're not even talking about the game... the actual game, when it matters... We're talking about practice ...

Reporter: Is it possible that if you practiced, you would make your teammates better?

AI: How the hell can I make my teammates better by practicing?

No Hand Attack

A no hand attack is work when the target is being pure to you.

好兄弟玩野之作

Part I : A Love letter for my girlfriend.

December fades as it undressed my desire
to be with you, to caress against your flawless
imperfection and brush upon those tender lips with dire
yet unburdening coercion. Admittedly, I confess
to lack the sugarcoating capability
of Mr. Cherish and the utter invulnerability
of Bien. Though I will vow to embrace
all of you with a smile on my face
and to cherish all of you
with loving grace.
Leave not, for your presence
marks my life's essence.
Hide not, for your absence
will bring about the death of me.

 

- Dec. 28, 2009

Part II - By April Shower

My love,
like the untapped mineral water,
hides beneath the callus rocks.
Come close,
and hear my heart
beyond the damaged skin.

Do you not hear the sweltering silver in me?

Put your lips on the rocks,
soften that ancient misery,
and let me rush that burn from your throat to
your heart.

Come quick my love, before I boil all the silver away! 

Part III - 

There are three things that amaze me—
no, four things that I don’t understand:
how an eagle glides through the sky,
how a snake slithers on a rock,
how a ship navigates the ocean,

how a man loves a woman.
Proverbs 30:18-19

Me: That's what true mean.

Dear April Shower

This is something you always looking for us to do in Jireh but never able to do it.
One day when G4 re-united.
Let's do it!

Faith

Anything is possible.

Justice Hammer

Must I be a bully in order to get what I want?
If tru, I rather not getting it.
I fear the arrival of Justice Hammer.
I don't know when it will come, but i know it will be soon.

and COME ON, even Dirk could do it!!
and he didn't really change much.

Understanding

Now they said we need to communicate better.
And ask me why didn't I discuss my future plan with them?
I appreciated that someone finally realize there is a need in this.
I waited someone realized after you all went to college.

However, ppl, u have to know something.
I choose to not saying anything since,
I failed to any of you to talk any of my setbacks.
Where were you when I have academic, social, and family problems?
Where were you when I am looking for any solution from you?
You weren't there.
For whatever reason, you just weren't 

Maybe you said  " We need to communicate better."
because you had a bad day either.
because usually, when you have a good day.
You don't bother to look any bad things.
I was actually impress to hear such remark, since i never such from you.
Maybe it's coming from your depress realm.

I hope one day i know what u want.
I helped a lot of ppl out in my friends' world.
I don't believe I can't bear any of you out.

Nevertheless, I finally started getting know you better.
And Im glad you have any problem for giving me hand. 

唔好再搵我

任務完成
我己經再沒有任何利用價值

我亦不期望你再來搵我
因為我唔想你來應酬我係出于你的罪疚感.
因為我知道你來搵我係因為貪我方便。
你來搵我反而令我更難專心做野。
我更不想做你的觀音兵。

講到這裏，我的弱點己經表露無遺
這次不求失憶，但求决心去堅固自己.
因為我要做一名響負盛名的Urban Planner.
I don't want waste my parent 20 years efforts and prime.
I want to earn from my parents 20 years efforts and prime.

I don't get me.

I asked me.
Why I willing to treating her that good?
Not once, more than twice.
Why I willing?
What is so good 'bout shee?
I don't get me.

AZHelp

Zeto's help. Zero help.

It's nice.

It's nice to know she treat me like nothing.
Despite of everything I had dye for her.
Even ppl who know me telling stop treat her tat good.
But a promise is made, I won't betray my integrity.
Yet, it's true.
It should be the last favor.
Let's walk. 

給愛麗斯但你卻是愛美斯 - As what God plan.

Red Hot Chili Peppers- Wet Sand

I need to stop the car. Time to go.

美人麗影

美人麗影，日不落的家儀