Fear or Right Call? or Fear of a Right Call?

Recently, some ppl in my church want to utilize me to revitalize their group passion in fellowship bonding and church serving quality.

At first, I am happy to see that. well, I am happy to do some positive thing at church.
However, later on, as I pray, I heard some kind of warning from the holy spirit.

He told me the followings:
Remember 4 years ago?
Remember your extra Jireh Retreat experience in 2008?
Remember that you pray carefully and try to do everything right, but still being sacked by your close friends and family members (yake, even when I type this now, the pain is sharp), because the beginning purpose of this serving position is wrong?

I immediately remembered, RIGHT, I basically lost 3 friendships that I once was highly regarded.   Right, I could simply defend in this way, "if 3 highly regarded friendships was lost due to such reason, it's better to lose it sooner than later." However, the pure truth is this: I am the one who started the fire to burn these friendships. And worse, everyone start hating me afterward. I think now ppl don't hate me as much as before, because they started having mercy on me...

At the midst of these groups of thoughts, I also questioned, is it coming from my fear? or from my holy spirit? My personal take on this: it should be from my holy spirit, because I forgot these experiences for a long time. Therefore, I shrink this time. I don't let myself to step up this time. I let all of my responsibilities go this time, because I don't like hate the feeling of being hatred and losing.