Perhaps

It was something I wrote during last year summer.

If I could start my life all over again,
I would do everything the same.
And everything would end up the same.

Quit thinking and saying what if we did that by that time.
It's impossible.

Why we say perhaps anyway?
because we think better decisions will make our lives more comfortable?
Isn't our life comfortable now?
Didn't our Lord gives everything we feel comfortable already?

Why we say perhaps anyway?
because our characters are not good enough?
how good can I be as I live without you, you and dad and mom everyday?
(And your presence is of course very important since you know my weakness and solution to fix this through your complain.)