Give and Take

When I don't have a life, I have a lot of friends who continuously back me up no matter what.

When I get my life back, all of them are gone for whatever reasons.

Some are gone because of sickness or fatal incidents. I think this reason shock me the most, because we are just 22, 23 or 24. Can't believe I already have to attend funerals of my friends that soon.

Some are gone because of their lives and future. This is my favorite reason. I wish they could reach their dreams one day. And then we could get together with some beers and look back our past, which include all the laughs and tears, together.

Some are gone because of what I had done. Well, this is a shadow reason. I just have to say you can't know me deep enough.

Some are gone because of who I am. You know what, I always try to be the best, which is more than trying my best, in every subject I got involved in. If you hate me because I work hard. Sorry, I have to choose my strict work ethic over you. Things will only get worse if I am slacking off. I have to work hard just to keep things the way it is as long as possible. Yes, I know things will be gone eventually, but I want to see it's gone because of God's will, not my laziness.